Tonight I am burning some CDs for your mommy, sisters, and I to listen to while we get prepared for you. There are so many things that I want to share with you -- my favorite books, all the countries I have visited, and music. I can't imagine life without music, and I hope you have heard the music bouncing through your mommy's belly.
There is one song that I have listened to a few times lately. It is the first song on your mommy's blog. It is called, Gratitude by Nicole Nordeman. At first I liked the song's beginning. I like repetition in songs, if it is used effectively. But then one day I stopped to think about the words. It is basically about someone asking for things through prayer. The difference with this song is that she says that if her prayers are not answered that that is ok, she will be thankful anyway. I guess that is the pinnacle of gratitude -- being thankful even when you don't get what you want. I'm strong in some ways, but I do not think that I am ready to say thank you if I do not get to hold you and love you and watch you grow into a beautiful woman. I am not ready to honestly say that I am OK with my little girl being in pain. I may get there some day; but right now I am too prideful to show true gratitude. I hope you don't hold it against me. You have brought me so far already. I have a feeling that you have just begin to teach me.
I hope your mommy's feeling was correct. Listen to our loving voices. Listen to the wonderful music. We are still here. We will never leave you. We await with arms wide open.
Love,
Daddy
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